In a big room full of candle lights,
deep in vegetation flavor, and having warm space with mats and cotton pillows,
there were more than twenty people lying and sitting in quite space.
Ronin Niwe, a Canadian
shaman, was sitting on the top of a semicircle, around him were tools including
small glass and a plastic bottle with no mark that no-one dared to touch. He
signaled to the left, immediately, everyone prostrated themselves in front of
him and quickly drank all dose called ayahuasca. On my turn, I had been
hesitating for a while before managing to swallow slimy and pungent solution
into my throat. After the last person completed drinking, it was Niwe to pour
himself a glass. The air was quite, went down heavily, and it seemed that
everyone in the room was waiting for the medicine’s reaction. Two hours later,
Niwe began singing a strange song (called icaro) with shrill sound, and the space
seems to be brought back to some wild area at Ontario.
It was really a strange
night on which profoundness and former mysteries were called back.
Had it been for the
entreatment of my husband – a film maker executing a documentary film of three
Canadians taking part in a mysterious ceremony of ayahuasca at Peruvian Amazon –
I would have never entered that wooden house. In fact, without that occasion,
perhaps I would never know the kind of medicine called ayahuasca – or also
called ‘spirit’s vine’, which is supposed to manage to cure depression or opium
addiction.
If
these above ceremonies
are considered as rather new rituals, local shamans (or also called
powwows, or
curanderos in Spanish) have made up ayahuasca for centuries. Along
Amazon river, every child is provided a little amount of this medicine
to cure petty
diseases such as stomach disorder.
Shamans made up ayahuasca by two different
kinds of Amazone’s vegetation, boiled them together in many hours until they stagnated
into a tea dreg layer, gained decoction was a kind of pharmaceutical product
with strong effect like a hallucinative stimulant that local citizens called
‘Saint’s medicine’.
After six ayahuasca ceremonies, I really
believed in ayahuasca’s effectiveness and intended to do something in
tonight’s ceremony. When it was my turn to receive the medicine, I told Niwe
that I hoped to have more high-faluting and more creative imagination. After many months
pursuing ideas for novel, I have always been nagged by two feeds of thought ‘can do’ and
‘cannot do’. I really want to break that negative thought, study my ego, and
publish the most wonderful book.
I quickly drank my all medicine,
and concentrated on listening to my breath. Suddenly, Niwe called me to step up
again, I stepped through dark space and sat cross-legged in front of him, and
waited for comprehending the icaro song he was about to sing. When he started
to sing, I felt that ayahuasca was gradually proving its effect. At first, I
felt that the song had happy melody and helped me smile, but then I recognized
that my heart beat faster as if it had broken out of my rib-cage. I wondered
whether he intentionally transferred quite strong energy so as to make me
concentrate. Then, miraculously, at the song’s chorus, I began to hear the
inner voice in my thought. I dubiously recognized that voice is a part of me,
but not all, it was rumble. And when I screamed ‘stop’, what remained was an
oddly quite space, and my soul was peaceful.
The song ended, Niwe
gently blew smoke into the crown I was wearing, clasped my hands, and blew a bunch
of feather into them. I returned my bed, felt more released, and recognized
group exculpation ritual began when the shaman shifted the song full of energy
into peace and quietness.
Not every ceremony always
brings peaceful feelings for soul like that.
Many years ago, I used to
imagine of monkeys that can fly in ‘The wizard of Oz’ movie bringing a ladder
to boiling hot earth’s core, seeing reptiles of prehistoric age hunt bait, then
all were eliminated like Linda Blair in ‘The exorcist’ movie. Niwe often says
soul has more impact on us than imagination and vision. Though many people
easily equate these two things as one, for me, after every time attending the
ceremony, I feel more associated with the world around me. That is the reason
why after more than five year, despite lay-off of handwriting or difficult
start, I turn back to the job.
Ayahuasca is usually
described in many different ways: an addictive drug, a medicine, or even a
sacrament, depending on everyone’s definition and use’s circumstances. One of
the main chemical compositions of the drug is Dimethyltryptamine – also called
DMT – that is found in most animals and plants. Besides, this chemical is also
produced in human’s body, secreted when people are born, die, and in sexual
relations.
At Canada, DMT is managed strictly and banned to be produced in mass if it is not allowed by the
Health Association. Canadian government even said to expand this ban for all
kinds of ayahuasca. Meanwhile, at Peru, ayahuasca is considered as cultural
heritage and made up in traditional way.
European biomedical
science almost stands still when studying ayahuasca. However, there are some
studies carried out satisfactorily. One of the authors having valuable research
results is Dr. Dennis McKenna, the one describes ayahuasca as ‘dreaming when
being awake’ syndrome. Being a pharmaceutist coming from Minneapolis, also an
author with more than thirty years studying plants, McKenna is a member of research
group founded in 1990 with purpose to study a group of people taking ayahuasca
frequently in a long time and a group of Brazilian priests using ayahuasca as a
sacrament. When the study ended, they drew some conclusions among which is the
fact that ayahuasca increases a large amount of serotonin metabolic composition
in brain. This is related to reducing drug addiction and negative behaviors. In
short, scientists acknowledge that ayahuasca has therapeutic effect and
effective anti-asthenia ability.
After a sound short sleep,
all group members sat together. They shared feelings, recalled of ‘imagination
and vision’, listened to the shaman’s instruction and passed the huge pipe full
of tobacco leaves.
When dawn sunlight went
into the room, I could observe more clearly those who spent the ceremony with
me last night. Most of them were in the age of twenty to middle-sixty with more
women than men, and in diversified backgrounds such as merchant, therapist,
yoga teacher, artist, writer, and even employee. Among them was a famous former
athlete. She shared that ayahuasca was a kind of mysterious panacea helping her
cure pains she had suffered for many years while her own doctor was unable to
cure.
After chairing hundreds of
ayahuasca ceremonies, Niwe shared that he believed ayahuasca ritual was a
process of discovering soul, not only is it a connection among brain, body, and
soul, but it is also a thread connecting everyone with the outside world.
That is the most
outstanding idea. However, the shaman also reminded me that ayahuasca gave you
what you needed, not what you wanted, and you needed time to understand your
soul’s voice. For me, I have been connecting my brain’s quietness, learning to
recognize my ego, and completing my own creative work. Step by step, I will
success.